Cross Your Fingers!

Cross your fingers for me everyone I need it. Next Thursday I go for my first "official" interview with OASHF for the Regional Support and Self-Serve Coordinator position. I am so excited about this interview and nervous as all hell about it too. I will admit I was rather nervous about posting it in the blog because I mean what if I don't get it? There is always that possibility ya know. Oh I know I am awesome and all that and that I can do the job and I have plenty of experience with what the job entails but I also know that others are there and closer and would not have to relocate to take the position like I would have to. And I am sure there are others who actually have a college degree of some sort and not just a little old high school diploma like I do. I would love to be able to go back to school and get a degree of some sort it is one of my goals but sometimes I feel like it is totally unreachable and way out of my league. Then on the other hand I really think I can do anything I set my mind to doing. Oh I don't doubt I have the knowledge and brain power to be able to go to college. It is the money I worry about. Last thing a single mother with 3 kids needs is to get thousands of dollars in debt with student loans. If I had been smarter when selecting my end of service award I would of gotten at least one education award in the 3 years of AmeriCorps service but I didn't and it's too late to change that now.

Oh well onward and upward one day I will get a degree I know it. It is one of my life goals. Speaking about goals; I was reading a friends blog and basically it is a list of goals that she wants to do. This reminded me that having goals is important. We should all have goals of some sort. This blog really struck me for some reason. I mean ya sure I have goals but I don't necessary write them down somewhere but they are in my happy little dizzy head which might not necessary be the best place for them so maybe I should list a few on the blog.

Goal #1 Go back to school for business and social skills and get that darn degree!
Goal #2 Get a better paying job. This should probably go before going to school sense they kind of go hand in hand. You have to have money to pay off those school loans.
Goal # 3 Become more self sufficient. I have been working on this one since I divorced my husband but have not been very successful. Oh I have had good jobs and my own apartment for short periods of time but I always seem to come back home to live with my mom. Thank you Mom for everything!!! Thing is me and my mother are close and I am an only child and if I leave she will have nobody there to help her so no matter what I do I have to always be there for her because she was always there for me.
Goal #4 I would love to actually write one successful grant. I have started a few but they have never been successful where you actually get the funding. The last grant I tried to write was for a special project for Shared Harvest Foodbank. I had rotten computer luck and my laptop died and I had not backed up any of my information so I had to start over from scratch and by the time it was time to submit there was no way I could get it finished on time.So I failed terribly with that one.
Goal #5 I want to always make my children proud of me and to be a good role model for them. I haven't always been a good role model I don't think but I have grown and changed many things about myself for the better I think.

OK there is a few of  Martha's goals for you and me to think about.